It's all in the name!

Once the initial decision to start a blog was taken the next big step was to settle upon a name. What to name it??? ( I changed the order a bit and drafted my first post even before i had a name in my mind :D )

Well I did have a few fanciful names in my head which i thought of when i first wanted to start my blog way back in my final semester. But none of them were concrete. I kept on changing the names. FInally I made my mind to call my blog as "Flutters of my heart".

Now after these many months I am left wondering why i named it thus. Because I am a very private person who holds things close to heart, who doesn't let others into her own private world or who doesnt let people know whats going on in her mind!

May be i meant my blog to be as an outlet for my feelings, my emotions but not for my thoughts.. Because going back i now realize that my every word sounds generic. :P

I am a person who lets in only a select few, allows very few people to enter into my life, to know the true me. Because I learnt very early on in life that letting people to get to know the true you, to let the world know your strengths and weaknesses, causes you pain and gets you exploited. I know the outcomes of trusting people. I am not telling you to not to trust anyone but place your trust in the hands of those who are worth it.

Enough of my maudlin thoughts and coming back to the topic, though that name isnt quiet true to this blog I feel that it somehow fits the bill perfectly. Finally i am glad with the outcome as it exactly resembles my thoughts which always flutter like the gossamery butterfly wings... :-)

180 degrees (o_O)

Whoa!! Does life ever stop surprising me :O
What a twist in the tale.. One moment here i was thinking about the twists in my life, work and the
responsibilities and then god has thrown something else on my way! May be this is going to be the
beginning of a new chapter in my life or the end of some other chapter- beginning of the end or the end of the beginning?!

Can't say that i am sad with these new developments then again i can't say that i am happy too. But i am not going to let this opportunity pass up on me, not again! Should work to the best of my abilities to make this seemingly impossible task possible. Time management is the key. After all you cant relive your life again so work hard and fast to achieve your goals and dreams in the time that you have using the opportunity provided to you.

At a time when i was moving away very far from my dreams, in a completely opposite direction, I was provided this wonderful chance to turn back 180 degrees again towards my goal! I dont know to what i owe the grace of the god for he has been kind to me always though i failed to recognize it at times. Who would give you so many chances despite missing your targets other than the good lord? I ought to be forever grateful to him and i should utilize this chance at any cost.

Time to handle the precious time with care, to keep my emotions in check, to burn the midnight oil, to be focussed, to be clear in thought, to take risk, to take a chance, determined and dedicated and finally to create HISTORY and be victorious! :)

The sands of time

How quickly my life has changed since my last post! From heaven to hell or is it from hell to heaven? Can't decide. The future holds the answer to that question. Life was cool once. Had time to enjoy with friends and spend time with family. But now the responsibilities are mounting up on me. Time to make myself stronger so that i will be able to shoulder all my burdens. As they say change is the only constant in life and I should get used to the inevitable.

I remember talking about the keywords change, life and choice in my previous post. But its not so easy when it comes to implementing them. Why do people shy away from change?? Atleast most of them do. Why cant we see that change is good for us and try to stick to our routine, not wanting to move up the ladder?? This is something that wonders me.

This is all on the professional front. Even personally i have seen a great change in my life. There's a
sudden shift in the direction my life has been going on in. Changes- both good and bad, are making my life a bit interesting at the moment. Like the sands of time i feel that my life is slipping away from my hands.. Time to do something about it, to be in control again and to get hold of my life.

Whatever is the reason i am trying to adjust myself to this new environment as one can't expect life to be a bed of roses always. Remember fall, rise and emerge stronger! :)

As the saying goes there are 3 things that cannot be recalled: an arrow that left the bow, a word that has been uttered and a life that has been lived. So we need to live life to the fullest, without any regrets as you cannot relive a life that was once lived.

Fall, Rise and Emerge Stronger!

Hello..After such a long gap i am finally back with a bang- With full of positive energy, optimism and hope! :)

What a day! As i write these lines the sunrays filtering through the window beside my desk are splashing me with their aura of life and hope. Yes, that is going to be my theme for this post.

From the past few days I have been watching some really good movies, reading good books, talking to great people, getting to know many things, i can somehow feel the change that is occuring in my internal thought process. Yes a CHANGE- a good one. For someone who hates change i am gald that today I am happily welcoming that change. This life is so very beautiful and you got only chance to live it-LIVE it on your own terms but not for the sake of living. I heard these words being said to me for more times than i care to count but i never actually realized its importance. Even now i am not sure that i exactly understand what that means but I am positive that i can start implementing it slowly. After all its never late for anything.

There has been many setbacks in my life. But everytime i got myself into the downward spiral and gave myself over to depression. But now is the time to bring about that much needed change in me. To correct few things, to set some things straight and to right all the wrongs. I am beginning to feel a renewed sense of hope in me- all thanks to the wonderful people around me and to the circumstances that made me stronger. They might have crippled me once but i am not going to give 'em another chance to. This is my life and i choose to live on my own terms.

Another important word-CHOICE. Every moment of our life is based on the choices we make. We can either choose to crib about our situations or accept it and move ahead.

I should have made this choice in my life much earlier- choosing not to let my emotions rule me. But better late than never. I dont have any regrets about it.

So as to follow my own choices i have compiled a list to keep up my levels of positive energy high-
Think positive- Your thoughts define who you are!
Be surrounded by people you love and care
Spend time with family, friends and pets
Go out-Enjoy nature. Give back to your society and environment.
Dont analyze things very deeply-think it through,discuss,solve,if it can't be solved accept and move on.
That's quiet a list! :P

One other thing to do next in my list is watching "A pursuit of happiness". I was told that its a great movie and looking forward to learn from that.

Some final words- Dont wait for others to help you. Push yourself harder. Dont lose focus on your goal-be happy no matter what. Dont let anything or anyone define you.

Make your own rules and abide by them. Search for ways to be happy and people that keep your spirits high. Whenever you face any setback-strive to hit back harder. Remember self-help is the best help. I would like to end this note with one lovely quote that i borrowed from one of my colleagues-"The bamboo that bends is stronger than the oak that resists".

Last but not the least many thanks to my friend pavan without whom my blog would have come to an untimely death! Thank you for not giving up on me and pestering me to write my second blog post :)
And thanks to those who had faith in me that i would bounce back and emerge stronger!

The beginning of a journey

What is it about blogs that makes few people go gaga over, I wondered. It was at a time when blogs were beginning to get popular. I didn't know what a blog was back then for i never bothered to know. In theory I knew what a blog was but never bothered to start one for i was happy writing my thoughts in my personal diary. I never had the need to share them with this world. Then i started hearing the terms blogs, blogging etc. a lot. Soon all of my cousins were into blogging including my sister! Even then i never bothered to start a blog of my own- laziness you can call it. One day i got a mail from one of my cousins Manasa sharing her experience as a blogger and asking the rest of us to write one too and to continue that habit. It was then the initial thoughts of blogging crossed my mind. But I was too busy with my final semester, my project and all. I promised myself that soon i too would start one. But then other things came across and took precedence in my life - my first job! Thus all my thoughts on blogging went from foreground to somewhere into the abyssal depths of my mind.

In my new job i found some new colleagues or rather friends, one of them being Pavan, an avid blogger. He maintains an amazing technical blog. After meeting him again my interest in blogging was aroused but those thoughts never materialised for i had so many things on my platter- preparing for my gate exam, learning new technologies, etc.

One day i.e. on Nov 8th when i didn't have such a busy day at work i took some time to surf the net. It was then that i came across one of my friends blog which inspired me and made me take the final step of creating a blog of my own! Thus here i am writing my first blog post :)

Once i decided to write a post my immediate thoughts jumped to the content. Then suddenly i found myself overwhelmed with all the thoughts buzzing in my mind that are fighting to come to the fore front of my brain and catch my attention. Tough decision! choosing is tough when you have no choices but it becomes toughest when you have so many options and you want to choose all of them but are restricted to pick only one among them. So I have decided to take one step at a time and start by sharing my decision to start a blog- the rest can wait! So friends this is Sowjanya presenting her first blog. Happy reading...