It's all in the name!

Once the initial decision to start a blog was taken the next big step was to settle upon a name. What to name it??? ( I changed the order a bit and drafted my first post even before i had a name in my mind :D )

Well I did have a few fanciful names in my head which i thought of when i first wanted to start my blog way back in my final semester. But none of them were concrete. I kept on changing the names. FInally I made my mind to call my blog as "Flutters of my heart".

Now after these many months I am left wondering why i named it thus. Because I am a very private person who holds things close to heart, who doesn't let others into her own private world or who doesnt let people know whats going on in her mind!

May be i meant my blog to be as an outlet for my feelings, my emotions but not for my thoughts.. Because going back i now realize that my every word sounds generic. :P

I am a person who lets in only a select few, allows very few people to enter into my life, to know the true me. Because I learnt very early on in life that letting people to get to know the true you, to let the world know your strengths and weaknesses, causes you pain and gets you exploited. I know the outcomes of trusting people. I am not telling you to not to trust anyone but place your trust in the hands of those who are worth it.

Enough of my maudlin thoughts and coming back to the topic, though that name isnt quiet true to this blog I feel that it somehow fits the bill perfectly. Finally i am glad with the outcome as it exactly resembles my thoughts which always flutter like the gossamery butterfly wings... :-)

180 degrees (o_O)

Whoa!! Does life ever stop surprising me :O
What a twist in the tale.. One moment here i was thinking about the twists in my life, work and the
responsibilities and then god has thrown something else on my way! May be this is going to be the
beginning of a new chapter in my life or the end of some other chapter- beginning of the end or the end of the beginning?!

Can't say that i am sad with these new developments then again i can't say that i am happy too. But i am not going to let this opportunity pass up on me, not again! Should work to the best of my abilities to make this seemingly impossible task possible. Time management is the key. After all you cant relive your life again so work hard and fast to achieve your goals and dreams in the time that you have using the opportunity provided to you.

At a time when i was moving away very far from my dreams, in a completely opposite direction, I was provided this wonderful chance to turn back 180 degrees again towards my goal! I dont know to what i owe the grace of the god for he has been kind to me always though i failed to recognize it at times. Who would give you so many chances despite missing your targets other than the good lord? I ought to be forever grateful to him and i should utilize this chance at any cost.

Time to handle the precious time with care, to keep my emotions in check, to burn the midnight oil, to be focussed, to be clear in thought, to take risk, to take a chance, determined and dedicated and finally to create HISTORY and be victorious! :)